Honestly Kid

by Daniel Damkoehler

 

premature fiction

Maria’s Story Pt.4

He had come to her before. The bushy grey-haired man from The Brenlee News smelled of stale cof­fee and cig­a­rettes and a made a point of her call­ing him Phil instead of Bergoyan. He was the only per­son from town who had said any more than ‘Sorry’ to her about her son. Most acted as though she didn’t speak English and/or avoided her entirely. Tomas’ teacher and Ms. Schmidt paid her visit, but they sim­ply wept with her.

Phil Bergoyan, for his part, wanted to offer Maria Batista more than tears. His sym­pa­thy, the town’s sym­pa­thy, soft words and sad eyes, all these things felt cheap and dis­pos­able. She and her son deserved some­thing more. He hes­i­tated before words as grand and over-bloated as Justice, but it was the thing most lack­ing and the only thing one might offer as real consolation.

The first time he vis­ited her house, Bergoyan asked her sim­ple ques­tions about Tomas, his father, and her­self. It was the day after they found her son mur­dered in the orchard and the facts seemed clear and dev­as­tat­ing enough. Three months after she buried her son, Maria buried her brother and Bergoyan came a sec­ond time.

“My brother drank too much.”

“Did he always drink too much or only since Tomas’ murder?”

Maria sim­ply did not answer. Bergoyan moved on, stick­ing to the facts, keep­ing things clear and dev­as­tat­ing enough again.

Six months after Neto’s death, Bergoyan returned to her. Mike Boone had been con­victed in an unchar­ac­ter­is­ti­cally brief trial. The pros­e­cu­tor claimed that Boone had tried and failed to molest Tomas and killed him out of frus­tra­tion. When Boone took the stand and mum­bled, “…but I liked him,” too scared and too sim­ple­minded to under­stand how to speak up for him­self, the jury took it all for shame and found him guilty.

“No one proved any­thing and no one cared.” Bergoyan told her.

When he wrote an edi­to­r­ial crit­i­ciz­ing the ver­dict, Bergoyan was called a ‘bleed­ing heart’ and a ‘sick soft-headed old man’ from a dozen of Brenlee’s fif­teen pul­pits, all down the Grady’s break­fast counter, and in the City Council and School Board meet­ings. He drank more than usual and sold The Brenlee News to a younger man who still believed words could matter.

So, on his way out of town he went to see Maria Coates one more time. This time he smoked his unfil­tered cig­a­rette in front of her, some­thing she had never seen him do before. “Ms. Batista. I’m leav­ing town.”

“I read that in the paper.”

“My leav­ing is the hap­pi­est news in a long time for this town, I’m afraid.”

“Probably.”

“I’m going to be rude.”

“Excuse me.”

“Do you know why some­one would want to kill your son? Do you know who killed him? Do you know anything?”

She looked at him. “You know, no one ever asked me that before.”

“That’s not exactly an answer.”

She smiled at him. “You don’t know any­thing about the $5,000 left in my mail­box the other day?”

He did not return the smile. “If you ever want to answer those ques­tions, I hope you’ll find me.” And he started down the porch to his car.

“That’s not exactly an answer either.” She called after him.

He stopped at his car and spoke loudly and very seri­ously, “You should leave town. Start a new life.”

“Would it be any better?”

And Philip Bergoyan drove away to try to ruin him­self once and for all, soon to fail at even that igno­ble task.